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I keep going back to her the way people go back to alcohol
like when you're really hungover
and you swear you'll never have a drink again
but two weeks later you're at a party
you're downing beers and taking shots
like it's your first time
and soon your whole world is spinning
you can't tell which way is up or which way is down
but it doesn't matter because you like the way it feels
even if it only lasts a short while
you don't care that tomorrow is gonna hit you hard
like it always does
all that matters in that moment is that feeling
where you forget everything bad and remember everything good

I am an alcoholic
and she is the finest of wines